memo

Don’t hide behind
the ghosts that rise
from tea cups,
or the dreams
you drink and forget.
The moon is awake
and you, you’re
alive and beautiful.

receiving a present "just because" for the first time:

"... so this is for you Kaelee, in case you ever find that you need a hug :].

I'm glad that I met you, Kaelee Nelson. You're quite the extraordinary individual. You're brilliant, perceptive, and overall thoroughly enlightening. You're unbelievably relatable. You're also incredibly funny and down-to-Earth... And I will always value our friendship."

!!

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          her legs
          and it’s all
          she has


left

Snooze button
pressed plural times
before feet flop to the floor
with an unenergetic, guttural sigh.


The water from the
uncomfortable shower
slaps my nape as
I turn around maintaining
a 45 degree neck angle,
catching the drops on my face:
‘looks like a sad scene from a movie’.


A minimalistic wardrobe selection,
‘maybe I just need to hydrate better’.
Clothed and out the door,
in time for class in seconds.


Please don’t ask if I’m okay,
it may just be my undoing..

I do not know which it is:
if I am the rock
at the edge of the sea,
or if I am the surging wave,
fast approaching.
All I know is I am at
the center of a collision
and I keep on crashing.

Long Division

the difference in feeling
doesn't seem
to divide between
you and i
very evenly -
the remainder
always being me.


who will carry
the one
left over?
(I've never been
very good
at math).

More Than I Can Chew

You've got some explaining to do
I’m biting off more than I can chew
And it’s got such bitter taste


I really don’t even know what to say other than I’m not happy
And I blame myself for the majority of my unhappiness
I make poor decisions which allows others to hurt me
But then there are the people in my life who I’m affected by that I can’t do anything about
They’re in my life to stay and I just have to push feelings towards them aside because it’s all I know how to do


You've got some explaining to do
So get to talking while I try to swallow what I can’t even chew