"It"

Often in my life, I have done things I have consciously decided not to do. Something- whatever it may be- goes into action. "It" goes to the man I no longer want to be associated with, etc. I'm under the assumption that others are in my same position. "It" makes the remark to the boss which costs you your head; "it" keeps on smoking although you have decided to quit, and then quits smoking once you've accepted the fact that you're a smoker and always will be. I don't mean to say that thinking and reaching decisions have no influence on behavior. But behavior does not merely enact whatever has already been thought through and decided. It has its own sources, and is my behavior, quite independently, just as my thoughts are my thoughts, and my decisions my decisions.