Insight alone is not a transformative force. It doesn't work that way. Everyday you might come to a new conclusion about yourself and about the reasoning behind your behaivor, and you can tell yourself that this knowledge will make all the difference. But in all likelihood, you're going to keep on doing the same old things. You'll still be the same person. You'll still cling to your destructive, debilitating habits because your emotional tie to them is so strong- so much stronger than any cereal box insight you might come up with- that the stupid things you do are really the only things you've got that keep you centered and connected. They're the only things about you that make you you.
If only life were like the movies where characters muddle things through and do what's right in the end. In The Breakfast Club, a geek, a jock, a rich bitch, a girl in black, and a hoodlum become best friends and reconcile their differences in a few hours' worth of detention.... In real life, any momentary intimacy at Saturday school would result only in some forced, awkward exchanges on Monday morning, everyone returning to the same old cliques and clans, the same old lipstick shades and sunglasses.
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