oh boy

I passed out, the cops came, my money was stolen, and glasses were broken. Cleaning this morning was awful, and I feel sick. I am so humiliated. I can hardly remember last night, but the glimpses I caught which are on repeat in my mind aren't pretty.



But that intimacy of mutual embarrassment is an effect so sincere. I mean, if I've embarrassed myself and am going to laugh over it one day, why not start now? Anger is weakness, tolerance is bravery. Humility makes you strong. Humility means to understand the self and through that to understand others as well. Humility is the attitude where a person is not attached to his or her opinion and feelings. Humility is the most natural expression of truth. It helps in better understanding of truth. Humility is the basis for maintaining self-respect. Developing humility brings a lot of comfort and ease into your life. I'm not insecure. I've been through way to much shit to be insecure. I've got huge balls. But I've been humbled. And that makes you greatful for everything. It helps you see things better and take things lighter. True humility is intelligent self respect which keeps us from thinking too highly or too meanly of ourselves. It makes us modest by reminding us how far we have come short of what we can be. When you accept yourself completely you do not have to maintain a phony front, drive yourself to achieve, or feel insecure if people tune-in to you and what you are doing, Smile, for everyone lacks self-confidence and more than any other one thing a smile reassures them.



We all want things that we know are bad for us. Everyone has dangerous facinations or unhealthy fixations. Some of them are a little harder to explain than others. But most of us know how to keep our impulses in check, fight off our darker instincts. My opinion for the critics about alcohol, drugs, or anything in that matter: What business is it of yours what I do, read, buy, see, say, think, who I hook up with- as long as I do not harm another human being on this planet? Last night was a blast. I love my friends and I'm so grateful for their help which I so clearly and desperately needed. Well, I'm hungry. And my parents just got home. It was nice chatting.