The bitch persona has moments of style and certain moments of substance, but quite often the attitude reveals itself to be about genuine anger, disturbance, or fear. It's the kind of female resentment and rage that produce girls like Sandy from Grease, for example. We all want to be Olivia Newton-John in the last scene, the girl swiveling her foot like a broken record to put out a cigarette with one of her red high heels (which are no longer "Fuck Me" pumps but rather "Fuck You" shoes), the girl with ratted hair, in slinky shiny black pegged pants. Yes, by the end of the movie Sandy has become your 1958 basic slut: the girl who, after suffering months of rejection for being a party pooper prude who didn't smoke or drink, has finally realized that you do have to "pet" to be popular, that you do have to put out to get the guy, that it isn't the blondes who have more fun- it's the sluts. Placing one's pretty power, one's pussy power, one's sexual energy out there for popular consumption no longer makes you a bimbo, it makes you smart.
We as girls already have ages of bad blood, beginning with Eve, ending our stay in Eden with her curiosity and lust for strange fruit, and to me it seems that even if we act like good people, the world is still quite likely to find us bad. So fuck dignity. It seems so much more exciting to be a Siren beckoning with her song or Calypso captivating on her island than to be Penelope, the archetype of female fidelity, weaving and unweaving, sending her suitors away while waiting for the errant Odysseus to return, waiting while he luxuriates in lotusland as he commits adultery with gorgeous, high-class women.
It seems to me, in the pageantry of public life, the one statement a girl can make to declare her strength, her surefootedness, her autonomy- her self as a self- is to somehow be bad, somehow do something that is sure to make her parents weep. We only seem interesting if something seems not quite right. Marilyn Monroe might have been miserable, but her death is immortal.
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ReplyDeletemen wrote the bible. for all we know eve didnt do shit. but i agree that its more fun to be scandolous...at least for a while. personally i find nothing but lonliness in it nowadays.
ReplyDeletebut if this is about girls hating on you. take there fucking bullshit and shove it up their ass with good old kindness. the only time you'll feel better isnt when you have there approval. its when you know your doing what you want and what you feel and it truly makes you happy. and from your most recent post... your not alone.
take it day by day. dont stop caring.know that there are people who care. you'll find your missing piece soon enough.
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