Do you ever have those moments that no temperature or duration of shower can erase?

I took a shower to wash away this Grime of Emotions, clinging to my heart and soul. It wouldn't come off; soap and water does not help. The hot almost-scalding water poured over my skin, hitting every pore in case these Emotions were hiding there, clinging for life... but their power is strong and all I did was stand there with a sad face, the water hitting me with all its grace. I just stood there helpless. I felt my heart beating heavily, my thoughts can't even escape the might of Melancholy and Worry. I stood there, getting physically clean, but emotionally, I don't know. The skin on my fingers turned wrinkly and said it's time to get out. So I turned off the shower and dried myself off, but this Grime of Emotions was still there. My heart dropped and went along with the rest of the water down the drain.