risk

conflicted in happiness
torn at my essence
by a broken past and a promising future
dare i breathe in the delights of another
i wish to shed my hard protective shell
and let all that is delicate be nurtured
in the harmony of love my soul does flourish
but in discord its effect is devastating
i hang on to what is lost
so as not to connect with what is now
though i have put up strong resistance he has reached my insides
and he grasps all that is delicate
i wish to surrender to him
give up this insurrection
i want to sing in harmony a memorable melody
a song of one shared life
a song that makes cynics puke disdain
but in surrender i risk everything